Coping. This becomes a state of being after a monotonous barrage of strife. Coping with your circumstances. Coping with your feelings. Coping with difficult individuals. Coping, or getting by, is simply how one eventually navigates daily life.
After a significant amount of time, coping gives way to exhaustion. No longer are you able to muster up the strength to face an obstacle, a predicament, and even routine tasks. When you reside in a land where you must cope continually, any human can falter.
Notwithstanding struggles and challenges, the sun rises each day. For myself, alone, I am beholden to two beautiful little people who depend on me for shelter, constant meal preparation, comfort, love, and entertainment. Giving into the beast calling out when I am no longer able to cope is just not an option.
It is in such times, that resentment prevails and bitterness sets in. Anger, the true enemy, can tame even the brightest of personalities when tensions mount. When mired in negativity, I have found the the sweetest remedy is to engage in something joyful. I refuse to let the arguments and assaults triumph over me. My battle lies in overcoming frustration, guilt, and hatred. For someone with a desperately poor poker face, I am keeping my cards close.
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